Henezzaa

No, this is not a poem I'm just me Speaking of us That we are nothing But are we, or were we? It's complicated I remember long winter evenings Walk holding hands Or holding hands in front of everyone I remember too Leaving the university Embraced and laughing What happened between us? I do not get it Everything was going so well My desire to kiss you Your desire to kiss me Our desire to kiss Just perfect. But suddenly Someone changed everything Your smiles were no longer for me Someone else had played with your feelings And you fell into the death trap From the first kiss And the typical phrase "Did not you remember last night, at the bowling alley?" And of course, How will you remember it if it never happened? I do not blame you And I do not blame her I blame myself And to my insecurities For not having chased you I am sorry I'm really sorry But it's okay I'm just me Speaking of us That we are nothing But we w...

It's been almost half an year and I thought it is finally over. I thought that is over- that is past . I don't think about him as before, I don't talk about him whenever I can anymore...  I thought I can continue and enjoy in this crazy life . Finally. A party- birthday party of my friend. Finally new chance to meet new people. But I decided that I will break the wall that is around me tonight. At first it was a little bit awkward. Some people I know- some new people. I set down in the corner with few friends and watched around. After around 30minutes, one friend of mine suggested to go and grab something to drink.  I decided I'm gonna finally take something alcoholic. I grabbed wine.  It was discussing wine but I drank it anyway. I was becoming free...  I drank 2-3 glasses, and 2 shots of vodka later on. I started dancing and singing...I was not giving a damn. That was unusual for me because I'm the one who just sits and checking the phone all the time.  ...